Pretty picture right?
I took this when I was on vacation to San Francisco. This was taken at the Muir Woods National Forest. (Redwoods and Sequoia Trees)
This picture is where I am pretending I am at right now :)
It seems like lately I've been posting nothing but craziness and really, my life is not crazy like that, but Its called LIFE. Everyone has ups and downs. Some people may have a little more craziness then others, but my life is quite the "norm" what ever that may be. We LOVE to go up in the hills and just go for a hike. We love going to Zapata Falls and the Sand Dunes every chance we get. Ralph and I are pretty out going people. Nature is our thing. When we are not up in the hills, we are at home. Ralph is right now putting new wires in his 1966 Mustang.
Nice huh :)
We both love to travel. Even if its just to Pueblo and back. If we have the time & money, we always try to get out of the valley as much as we can. And if you are not to familiar with the SLV, then lets just say the closest Mall is 2 hours away. The "biggest" attraction is Walmart. LOL! This place is small. No joke. But the valley does have its hot spots. The Great Sand Dunes National Park.
Love that place. When the water is high, Oh its heaven. All natural hot springs. There are many places to go camping and fishing in the SLV.
This was taken up Rock Creek. Half of the view of the good ol' SLV. And there are many other things to do here. But when you are far from bright lights, big cities :) You may get a little cabin fever. But I love my life and I LOVE the people in it.
The last 3 weeks have been such an eye opener. It has been a harsh reality on how life can be so short and that I take advantage of the things I have and the people I surround myself with. When things get rough for me, I can sometimes freak out and maybe make others feel like its their fault, or just scream at them because I want them to know how I feel when I should never be that way to begin with. I was never brought up that way.
My Ralph. aka. Schmelph, Rafa,Rafaelita, Palph, Schmoe, Schma, Schmoo, (LMAO) I try to give him as many nicknames as possible. HA!
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. We have had the best/worst 6 years together. Best because we do everything together!! We love each other's company. We seriously never fight...well for the most part, we don't fight. We are just made for each other. He is my best friend and I'm just crazy in love with him. The worse is when we do fight, (I hate to say) is usually about his family. And all of the "Drama" that is around his family. Is that his fault? NO! Should it be his problem? NO! Does he feel like it is. I don't know how he feels about it. I'm guess he doesn't like the drama and would rather not talk about it. He is not one to "open his feelings up/talk" LOL! All/most of the hard things we have been going through has to deal with his family. And I shouldn't point the finger at them all, but I'll say 90% has to deal with them. The other 10% I'll just blame me. When I have a problem, I don't sweep it under the rug, I will tell the person and try to fix it. I hate confrontation but I can't stand having a problem and not doing something about it. But my Ralph is the most caring, loving, giving, understanding, happy, super funny, heart of gold kind of guy. He would do anything to help a person out. He pretty much laid his life down for his family and while doing that he put our relationship on the back burner for them all. Do I hate that about him. NO! He has taught me no matter how bad people treat you, you still treat them with respect. It's a hard lesson for me since I think the opposite. If someone is doing harm, leave them, or tell them how it is or something. And he is not like that. He co-signed a car for his brother and in return his brother didn't want to take care of the responsibility and it got repo. Since that repo, Ralph couldn't finish school. He is only about 2 years from getting his teachers degree. Because Ralph thought he was doing the right thing for his brother, Ralph is the one who got hurt the most. I will say that EACH one of his family members both parents, brother and 2 sisters) have walked all over Ralph and completely burned him to the point of no return and Ralph still gets up with a smile on his face and he keeps going like nothing ever happened. And for that, he is teaching me that no matter how hard life gets, nothing can knock him down. He is such an amazing person. I truly am blessed to have him in my life.
So now it's this right here ^^^^^^^
Little whispers....We all do it. But since this bumpy road I have been walking on, I have learned that life is too short for he say/she say bull. I don't care.
But I do care when little whispers are going around saying "Oh that Shelby, she is drama. And the people around her are drama as well." Well let me give you an in site on my so called "Drama" It is called LIFE! What Ralph and I been going threw is life. For you to pass judgement makes you look like a fool. The last 3 weeks have been a little too crazy for me at times, and seeing that has been an eye opener. You may see it on TV and think nothing of it. But when you deal with it in real life and seeing it in real life is a totally different story. You have no clue on what people really go through. I would like for some people to walk in lets say Ralph's shoes for a day...
#1. You try to help you brother and it backfires in your face.
#2. You now have bad credit.
#3. You can't finish school.
#4. You are starting to struggle with everyday bills that shouldn't be stressful.
#5. You try and help your sisters out and it backfires in your face.
#6. You try and take care of your nephew and they can't handle the heat and put your nephew up for adoption.
#7. You try and help your sister back on her feet and they totally take advantage of you.
#8. While all of this is going on your parents are slapping you on the wrist because they say you are too mean to your siblings and you need to apologize for doing them wrong.
#9. You get too far behind on your bills and collectors are harassing you on the phone all the time.
#10. You loose your only vehicle.
#11. You are in the process of filing for bankruptcy.
#12. You try and help your sister who is a drug addict.
#13. You are watching your sister slowly killing herself because the drugs are taking over her life.
#14. You have nothing else to offer and you feel like its all your fault because your parents are saying things like "If you weren't so mean to them, Or, You never used to be like this until you met Shelby, Or something to point the finger back on you.
And while all of this is going on, you don't talk back and you don't really stick up for yourself because you know that will just add more fuel to the fire. So while all of your siblings are crying to mommy and daddy saying Ralph is being mean,and your parents are screaming at you for not being a good brother and you pretty much lost everything you have been working so hard for, You tell me how is that being drama. So the next time you complain that you had a bad day at work, or you got into a fight with a friend, or your tired of babies crying all day, remember someone is going through a HELL lot more troubles in life then something small that is nothing compared to what we have been dealing with. Or I should say what Ralph has gone through. Is this for everyone to feel sorry for Ralph. NO! He doesn't want people to feel bad for him nor does he want people' sympathy. All he has been saying its life and it can get hard but Pray that we all get through it together. All he wants is prayers. And so do I.Pray for his sister Stephanie. She needs it the most.
And that is my soapbox for the day.
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